You start something, be it a relationship in this case, with every wonderful expectation in the world. You can't do that. It always leads to someones heart getting hurt.
To stop expecting someone to do something, to be there, to give a shit, to simply care, will solve all your heartache problems really. Think about it. If you detach yourself from ever expecting anything, you are less likely to get hurt. You are less likely to look like a fool when the other person decides that you are not the right fit for them. And you are left standing there with your bleeding heart in your hands because it was just ripped out buy the person you expected would never hurt you.. Oh well, that was dramatic.
In my eyes soul mates are a myth. People throw that term around too loosely nowadays. You say you found that one person you were meant to be with... um yeah, I don't think so. You say you found that one person that you connect with on every level... um yeah just wait for it. You say you want to spend the rest of your life with that person... hahahaha. So you expect so much and put that person on such a high pedestal and the expectation for the perfect person gets shattered when they mess up. When you expect for them to do something that they say they will do, no matter the scale, and they let you down... who's the dummy here? you, who foolishly expected them to actually follow through... or the person who just fucked you sideways.
And back to that fricken Soulmate crap. I myself have not ever found this person, nor do I think I want to. I am fearful of that time. I think it's safe to say that my soulmate is my boogeyman, haha. I will run for the fuckin hills if I ever meet him.
Because I dread having to go through what I see other people going through I don't have high expectations for anyone coming into my life because of it. You trust someone, so you let them in but the walls will still stay up. They won't come down for anyone. It's such a headache. A cycle for me, over and over and over. Lies, hurt, let down, fail... rinse repeat. Sadly when I just said that I wasn't always at the receiving end. But I don't expect anything from anyone... Ever. I just have low or no expectations at all. It's like, I don't expect anything from you... so don't expect it from me. You want to do what you want... so I'll do what I want. tit for tat... "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you". That's how I justify my actions. It's not the best way to go about life but it makes me feel better knowing that you can't fuck me over because I'm ten steps ahead of you.
Whoa, this just got really depressing and made me look like an evil twat. oh well.
But no seriously I'm fine people. Don't ask me if something is wrong. I just was long overdue for another entry and this was a draft I decided to finish that was started a couple months ago. I found that Shakespeare quote and it got me thinking about family, friends and my past. Meh, But you fuckers know it's the truth. kidding... not all of you are fuckers. kidding!!!!
